It just clicked in my head. God makes me see something which i knew but didn’t want to see all along. Everything suddenly make perfect sense. If there is ever one thing in my life which i need to change, this is the time to do so. Change this very characteristic of mine and my whole life will change. Change this very attitude of mine and my perspective will change. And i might actually-finally finish what God intends for me to …

I can’t turn back time, i can only make sure there isn’t a need to.
I can’t stop time, i can only make sure every seconds are the moment i ever lived for.
I can’t go into the future, i can only make sure to live a life which impacts it.

Life isn’t as it seems, like the network of the spiderweb, i just have to link them all together. And everything is there all along, along the many unfinished paths. I just have to pick them up one at a time, finishing them all. Now with the fog all gone and cleared, I have to get back onto what i need to finish for the counter have already started long ago. Stopping when i stop, clicking when i walk. If there is any other time, this is the time to do so.

Well, life is complicated. It isn’t as simple as i wish it will be. Sometimes i wish i won’t see, but God’s gifts i won’t reject. I just have to use them as He will want me to use. It is time isn’t it, my Lord. What i lack before, i pray that i have it now. The courage, the character and the maturity to grow the gift from seed to tree.

“Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!”